Archive for October 2020
The steering wheel
Let me rememberto loosen my grip onthe steering wheel of life,allow my hands to relax,my elbows to sink. Let the roadtake me, the wheels rolland notice – yes – I’m gettingwhere I need to be.Anyway.
Read MoreShades of brown
Can I sink into the shades of brown,the mushroom, bark, earth?Let me inhalethe mud, the chestnut horse.Shades of brown so nourishing,I will let red alone.
Read MoreMatters
John,we will call him that,got himself all upsetabout the neighborand what he didand how disrespectfuland rudeand thoughtless he was;so distressedJohn could not sleepand was angrymuch of the time.Then one day,he saw the tiniest of birdssweetly peckingseeds from the pine,and he rememberedthat actually,in reality,when it comes down to it,most things– really –don’t matterthat muchat all.
Read MoreAlive
On a sullen day with agentle breeze, the heavyhemlock, the bronzed beech,the peeling bark – they’re allsoftly moving in a danceof aliveness.
Read MoreDown deep
Rocked on the foamy waves…
Read MoreNowhere slowly
Let us go nowhere slowlyand find the world –the woodpecker knockand the chickadee float.Let us love the gigglingchoir of the stream andthe brave clover shoots.Let us go nowhere slowlyand feel the rocky, squidgy groundreveal its stories to our feet.
Read MoreWastefully efficient
Look at naturewith its thousand treesand their million leaves.Billions of sperm,trillions of bacteria.Mosquitoes,dragonflies,moths. So much,so wastefullyefficient.
Read MoreDelicious
It’s curious how autumn can smelldelicious, warmly loamy, earthy, cozy.The crispy leaves trap the heat,the nourishing nuts in woodchuck’s nest.There’s bark and twigs, seeds and thorns.It’s gorgeous, nutritious, scrumptious,death.
Read MoreHere
Sometimesthe easiest way to get to the place I need to beis by sitting still.
Read MoreBark
Sometimes when I want toget out of my head I reachfor a beer and other timesI visit a tree and notice itsthirteen shades of brown and itsAppalachian bark, I see its woundsand its peels, its twisty bitsand its shiny bits, I find a life livedin the hot years and the cold years,the gales, the storms,…
Read MoreThe cup
Every time I’m herebut not here, I missthe shine on thehard, white, clean porcelain cup.
Read MoreEveryday sunsets
A fresh leaf in fall,the chipmunk with hiccups,a soft mossy forest,some quartz in a stone.A new blue flower,the breeze in the branches,that cheep from the sparrow,a far wisp of mist. They’re everyday sunsets –all of them.
Read MoreMonday
Will this Monday be the dayI learn to sweep the world’sfallen leaves; when Post-its and dollarscan be brushed aside to revealthe sweet ground of life? Will this be the day I remember there’s alwayssoft earth beneath my feet? Can I be with Monday by uncovering the weekend?
Read MoreFullness
How curious, says he one daywhile sitting on the couch,how life can be full in the headwith its to-dos and its bills,it’s difficult conversationsand its 2pm dates. And yet, says hewhile lying on that couch,how down in the chestit can be empty and spacious,a chamber for love.How curious, says he,while standing up,that what seems emptyis…
Read MoreLime
The kitchen smells of limethis morning – a zesty Hi!from the night before. Outside is fog,inside is Florida. Like a kick of joy in a groggy dream.
Read MoreThat moment
That moment,as I approach an open windowand get my first scent of the outside air.That moment…that moment is life.
Read MoreThe feathered things and the leafy things
When the big things and the terrible thingsget too heavy, I take a step outside,stand still and allow the small things – the feathered things and the leafy things –and know that OKness is always there.
Read MoreLet me drop into my quiet place
Let me drop into my quiet place,that deep safe of emptinessand everythingness; that warm spaceof home, where all’s OKand what’s not OKis not important. Let the rest of the world, with its heatand its static, its parties and its stories,go about its babbling. It doesn’t matter much.
Read MoreWildlife
I wonder if we — as humans — would feel better stripping off the Lululemons,unpopping the AirPods, stepping out of the Lexusand remembering that we — too — are wildlife.
Read MoreEh?
Why do we thinkwe must rushto answers? Aren’t questions enough?
Read MoreGrowing down
When we’re five,we’re in lovewith fungusand berriesand mud. Then we grow up,buy a houseand wonderwhat’s missing.
Read MoreStillness allows
Perhaps it’s only when we stop and be stillthat the world begins. Only when we ceaseand rest do we see the paper-white moth,the shiny droplets on the leaf, the birdthat drums on the hemlock trunk. Only thendo we taste the air and notice the wind,glimpse the sun shafting through the cloud.Perhaps it’s only when we’re…
Read MoreMind dust
There are minutes when I’m boredand my brain and my fingers don’t knowwhat to do, so I scroll through Twitteror Facebook or the New York Times,allowing each new post to settleon my mind, one by one like motesof silver dust, until I’m blanketedby dirt and detritusand crud. Through the window, meanwhile,the sky is clear and…
Read MoreWhere it happens
In my head, there’s a full executive suite,with a CEO, CFO and a director of operations,who gets hot and busy with all the operationshe has to direct. Then, down in my chest,is a silent sanctuary. It gets ignoredbut the truth is – It’s where the real work gets done.
Read MoreThe osprey
One Monday morning, my head was heavy as I stressed the to-dos and the emails, Covid and CNN. My shoulders were tense and my jaw was clenched. I’d downed two coffees and needed three more. And then a bright white osprey ghosted past the window
with a fish in its talons.
Rain, forest
Have you noticed,when the rain is barreling downin the forest, it sounds likethe trees are applauding?
Read MoreA new daisy
On the kind of October daywhen the leaves are brownly matted,the clouds three miles heavy,and the wind sears a knifey bite;when winter seems tomorrowand darkness rushes early —a new daisy appears.
Read MoreCeci n’est pas Snubsta
Where do we put the thingsthat don’t have names, which cannot startwith A or Z, or sit on this shelfor in this bin? How do we thinkabout the feelings we knowbut won’t describe; when wordsare faint and point askew?How can we talk about truthswe can only sense?Is silence perhapsthe only sound we have?
Read MoreThe nest
I uncovered the sparrow’s nest in the woodpile. It was made of hay, stiff, strong and light with a perfect oval dent. My brother, the engineer.
Read MoreJust static
Have you ever wondered – he says one Thursday night –whether most of what we call lifeis – actually –just static?Is day-to-day reality the popcorn at the movieor the back-of-class giggling?Is it the squeak in the trunkor the clicking of the fridge?Is it possible the news and the socialsand the jobs and the Dowsare the…
Read MoreThe world turns
Those loons, which must knowtheir warm water will shortly freeze.Do they worry? Or do they just fly? The monarchs, so tissue-flimsyand buffeted by the wind,they have an odyssey ahead.But are they afraid? And the woodchuck,hungry all summerfor a winter at rest.Does it care how the snow will pile? The world turns and they turn with…
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